My job is simply to be myself, to be Ayumi Hamasaki.
[...]Everyone has a secret. Right? Of course I have a secret. I think maybe you too?
I don't want to become adult!
If people will listen, I will go anywhere in the world!
Music is my life, if I am without music or if I can't sing any more, I die, I'm nothing...because music is everything.
[...] I don't know my future. I don't know about tomorrow. I can just control for today or present, right now. [...] I don't want to think about future too much, because present is most important for me.
Interview with TalkAsia, November 2007
…I guess the very first thing is to own your true self, and that includes achieving the point of not lying to others; the first step should be not lying to yourself.
By your faith in people, you will someday be betrayed.
I thought it was the same as being rejected.
At the time I didn't have that kind of strength.
Certainly, I knew too much.
It was said that I was a strong child.
I was praised, saying "you must have strength not to cry"
The more things like that were said,
the more even laughing was painful.
Today was very sad,
and even if tomorrow, I cry,
someday I will be able to laugh
and remember our time together.
How many seasons must pass,
in this, our finite existence?
If we live in the "now",
what will we find?
You once said long ago
while stroking my hair,
"When you wake up, there'll be
a nice present
by your pillow."
Your back always
looked small and weak
but we could laugh together
at funny stories.
But if people keep making
the same mistakes over and over
can they really regret them?
When I woke up, I found
by my pillow a teddy bear
instead of you.
Today, in this city
two people will meet and lock eyes;
the curtains are then turbulently thrown open.
[...] Today, in this city
two people will separate their paths;
the curtains are then silently lowered.
But, for everything,
there is an end, someday, inevitably.
"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I sustain deep, deep wounds.
But, by the person I should love,
they are all healed.
"Maria" Everyone is crying.
"Maria" But I want to believe.
"Maria" So I'm praying now
that this is my final love.
Beginnings come at random,
but endings always have a reason.
But in such a place as this, I can only tell you
by singing this song.
Though my heart is filled with feelings I want to convey
You see, I can't express them in words
If I had not met you
I wouldn't even have such an embarrassing pain
No Way To Say
Slowly, I've come to realize
That I cannot heal my past
And that fearing the unavoidable future
No Way To Say
Goodbye. You have gone to the place where we can never meet again
I can't accept the coldness of an eternal parting
I wish I could have heard you say
That surely, you had loved me
Only once, even if it were a lie
You see? The times have changed
But why do I still hear people say
"Tears are woman's weapons"?
We don't cry easily
We are not always flirty
We are not dolls
Who are only dressed to the nines.
My Name's Women
An interested stranger asked me
How do I see the scenery from here?
It's how you think it would be.
It's useless to explain
Everybody GO! Everybody JUMP!
My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
It wasn't for anyone else
But only to protect myself
And I didn't think about anyone else
But I escaped from reality
Escaped from the pain
I said to myself
"Some day, I'll be as I should be
Though I'm far from there now"
After such excuses, my eyes were opened
All I could do was to live in the present time.
Yayayaya Gagagaga Dadadada Wowowowo
Yayayaya Gagagaga Dadadada Wowowowo
Even if you think you are too bold
It's all fine
In all honesty, I'm hesitant
To be prudent and reserved
OK, together now, "Bold & Delicious!"
Don't watch me quietly, stand up please, "Bold & Delicious!"
Daybreak comes quickly nowadays
The scent of wind has changed
It seems familiar yet unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
It's sweet and sad
We ran along the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far-away summer days
Where does this road lead?
And where does it go from there?
Even if I imagine [the possibilities]
Of course, I have no clue.
I feel the more I wish to be strong
The weaker my heart becomes
In inverse proportion
We notice it the moment our eyes meet someone else's
We feel it when coming into contact with him [or her]
But then once
We feel weak in the knees
The wind strokes my cheeks and makes it feel real
And whispering quietly
That this is not an illusion at all
On that day, you decided
That you would walk by yourself
On the endless road
that crosses the clouds [and leads] to the sky
Leaving so much here
I want to tell you and talk about.
Untitled ~For Her~
What if everyone goes on the endless road
Sooner or later
Over the clouds to the sky
Be sure to wait for me.
And then, we will talk away
About our countless memories.
Because we want the same happiness
We keep carving the same wounds onto our hearts.
So I won't forget you
I call you over and over again
Please don't cry any more
I won't leave you alone.